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Hey everybody

I need to really keep up with this live journal. I never post anymore. Things with the baby and nathan are good. Seth is growing like a weed. He is 2 months old today, and tomorrow he goes to get his 1st round of shots. poor baby :(. My friend Alicia had her baby boy yesterday. So now seth has another baby boy to play with cus my other friends had girls. He is getting so big, and his hair is getting even longer. We get mobbed everywhere we go because everybody has to stop and look at his hair. Hope everyone had a good new year!
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Jelly Bean

Today we went to my 2nd ultrasound and got to see the Jelly bean again. Jumping around as usual. The Tech said she thinks its a boy. Nathan is very happy about that. I was hoping for a girl, it still could be, but im not gonna get my hopes up. Hopefully in 2 weeks we are going to go get a 3D ultrasound and get to know for sure what the gender of the baby is. Other than baby stuff, not much has gone on in my world. Just work and sleep work and sleep. I am constantly tired, I keep growing out of my underwear, none of my skirts fit anymore and my feet are all swollen. Any time I hear someone say they loved being pregnant
I just want to smack them, cus its so not fun. The only fun part is being able to feel it moving inside you.
On a darker note, I found out that one of my friends was murdered in March. Im trying to find out the details about what happened, it just sucks so bad that it happened. It dosent seem real!
Anyone else going to Informatik Thursday and or Diary of Dreams on Saturday?
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    Diary of dreams- menschfeind
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Birthday Party

Well its that time of year again.. Club on Friday for my B-day and then Sat Feb 18th at 7pm I am having a party at my apt. Email me if you can come and Ill give ya directions. Yay Party!!!
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    the sound of heart monitors going off
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Im back!!!

Well i havnt posted in like forever and a day... Nuthin much is going on ...single again. Suprise!!! Just sitting here waiting for my cousin to get ready so we can go out to sullys bar tonite..... Since i cant really go the club much anymore...well i could but well you know.... Nothing really interesting going on. Today i went to skate U for Megans suprise bday party. I havnt skated in like forever. Didnt fall once! and after an hour it was actually fun, because i got over the fear of falling. This has got to be one of the most boring posts i have ever made.... well enough for now.
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Hmmm

Well the last few weeks have been extremly eventful, a break up, a move, a new apt, a new kitty, car broke, car fixed, rekindled love, lots of good talks, lots of great sex, being rich, being poor, lauging a lot, crying a lot, more responsibilty at work, lots of hugs, talking to old friends, making new friends, lots and lots of things..... good and bad. but mostly good..... I hope things keep going good. I love my friends, i really like my job, and I really like my life right now......
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    Deine lakaien- into my arms
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MANSON!!!

So LOCKJAW opened for Marilyn Manson at the Eagles ballroom on friday...it kicked ass! The show was sold out of course, and the guys did a great fuckin job. Im so proud of my boy. Unfortunatly we didnt get to see manson anywhere backstage...but oh well... SO now its 5 weeks till graduation..im so excited. I cant wait to be done with school! Its been a long road, and im finally almost done. yay for me
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Baby Day......

Well friday i found out that my dad and his girlfriend debbie were in the hospital to be induced. I was expecting a new little brother in mid October and today (sunday) was supposed to be the baby shower that i was giving. Well anyways, debbie went to the dr's and they noticed that the baby stopped growing and debbie was losing weight so they decided to induce and get the baby out now because he would be safer outside than inside. Friday nite i got to the hospital (Community memorial where i work..) and we were in for a long haul. Labor was long, i spend the nite there with debbie and my dad. The baby finally came at 10:56am he was soooo beautiful. 4lbs 12oz. 19 inches long. I was soo happy he was ok, and i got to see him be born. Hes a little tiny peanut teeny tiny head light blonde hair. I ended up staying at the hospital until 5:30pm on saturday.


I had planned on taking the baby shower cake to the hospital to share with the nurses since the shower was cancled. I called the hospital and my dad answered and he was crying....i kept asking him what was wrong and he handed the phone to debbie. I was getting really scared and she said "Tina, theres a problem and i dont really want to tell you over the phone." So i rushed to the hospital and ran to the room. I havnt been so scared in a long time.... everything was going thru my mind on the drive there...i did about 85mph the whole way there....I was soo afraid they were going to tell me that he didnt make it through the nite or that there was a major problem with him.....but in the back of my mind i knew what was wrong....I cried the whole way to the hospital worrying.....

When i was watching them clean him up after he was born i noticed something a little different about him, but i didnt want to tell my dad or debbie what i thought it was because i didnt want to scare them unnecessarly....but i was right...

When i got to the hospital debbie and i went into the hall because there was a room full of visitors...and she told me .....before she could get the words out we both started crying and she said "honey, he has Down Syndrome"......... I gave her a hung and we stood there for a while crying and i told her that i knew.....and didnt want to say anything right after he was born..... he dosent have all the characteristics but he has six out of ten... I never thougth in a million years that his would happen.

Im ok with the fact that he isnt like other babies, but it just makes me soooo sad that he has to go thru life with stares, and remarks, and other things. Hes going to have to go to school and listen to kids teasing him and there are so many health problems that can develop. But hes my little buddy, hes the most beautiful baby and i love him soo much. I never thought i could love somebody so much so quickly. I would do anything in the world to save him from having to go through life with the struggles hes going to have to face. I'll always be there for him and ill always want to protect him from the horrible things in the world. But at least we still have him in this world, he's alive, he's beautiful, he's my new baby brother, and i love him.
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We got robbed!!!!!

Well last nite Nathan's Band Lockjaw played at the rock shop with Celldweller....it was Great!!!! We had a good nite. We went and got food and las palmas and went home to go to sleep. We went to bed around 3am and got woken up at around 9am. The doorbell rang and nathan went to go see who it was. When he didnt come back to bed i got up to see who was at the door. I saw a police officer standing there and i looked at nathan and was like "oh shit!" "my car!" We had a ton of stuff in the car from last nite. Some punk motherfuckers broke into 4 other cars in our parking lot at our apartment as well. I ran down the stairs and saw my little back baby window broken, and my back door wide open as well as my trunk. Inside the car was trashed, all that was left was nathans cabinet, which holds his speakers and his amp. Those things werent taken because were assuming there way too heavy. The things that were taken were :

My Clarion CD player
Every single CD that i own....No more djing on Tuesdays for me for quite a while
Nathans Brothers super nice digital camera full of pics of lockjaw and celldweller
Nathans Bass guitar and coffin case
aprox 10 cables for his equiptment
and both of his distortion petal

All together they got around $5,000 worth of stuff just from my car

4 other cars including the car right next to mine got windows smashed, cd players stolen as well as other random things.

After the cops dusted for fingerprints we went back upstaris and made a list of our losses and gave it to them.

we tried to go back to sleep but i couldnt sleep. Nathan was in bed so i started calling around to music and resale shops. Angela suggested doing that and i figured it was worth a shot. At least i could say i tried because you never know until you try.

I started calling every place in the phonebook. I explained what happened and asked them to keep an eye out for anyone coming in with an abundance of cd's that fit the styles of music i had.

I called Cream City Music and described nathans bass guitar and case along with his other equiptment and the fucking guy had it!!!!!!!! He said some kid came in and sold it around noon today!!!!

I got off the phone and called the cops again and we met the officer that took the original report. Nathan took a look at the stuff and sure shit!! it was his stuff
We found his bass, coffin case, all his cords, and both his petals!!!!!!! i couldnt fucking believe it!!! I couldnt believe that i fucking found his shit. So the cop took all the stuff to the police station to be photographed. And hopefully tomorrow we can pick it up.

Another good thing is that Cream city requires a photo id, so the cops now have the name and address and licence # of the little fucker that had nathans shit. Hopefully some of our other stuff can be recovered, but im not too hopefull. At least we got nathans band stuff back. I now have to start my cd collection over from scratch. I had around $4,000 worth of cd's. And there ALL gone.

IF ANYONE HAS ANY 80'S MUSIC I WOULD BE GRATEFUL IF YOU COULD BURN ME SOME STUFF WITH PLAYLISTS.....I WOULD BE GLAD TO PROVIDE THE BLANK CD'S FOR U.


oh and not to mention another apartment complex parking lot a few blocks away got hit last nite as well....those fuckers got a lot of shit on there little rampage.....i hope they catch these mutherfuckers!